BTW that's not me... i NEVER feel like i have anything figured out!

No matter what your age is, have you ever felt that you are just some teenager pretending to be an adult? With a lot of anxiety about stuff that you kind of HAVE to go through to the best of your abilities but you would rather not and spend all day playing games (or doing anything else)?

Lack of updates due to a sudden surge of work like i had never seen before. Regular updates will follow shortly.

I know i don't have to announce shit like that but i do it just to show that i haven't forget about this place!

On a lighter note, i just added pagination to the microblog, so it doesn't load all the pages on the index.

Boy, this one took a long time to write...



Alright... this post it's gonna be lengthy and deep, basically i want to talk to you about my opinion on the matter of AI image generation. I'm NOT trying to put myself behind any of the sides of the controversy here nor i'm trying to state my opinion as a truth or fact, I'm just trying to flesh out my opinion on several aspects of it, in hopes you have more tools to form your OWN opinion. The post is gonna be LONG, but it's just because the controversy is hot and the topic is VERY complicated, Anyone who tries to simplify the issue on a single tweet is lying to you.

And the post is so large that i had to modify the code of this blog just so i can split the content into a preview and a full view, so please, click on the following link to see the full post.

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Have some free time to waste away today? No? Well, too bad! Because once you enter to The Cutting Room Floor you won't be able to leave the site easily.

This page is a compendium of secrets that all your favorites videogames have. But secrets in the hard sense, because they gut and dissect the games to try to find unused text, graphics, and other files that nobody should be able to even find by playing the games.

The page also highlights the differences the games have between regions and the content that was cut and censored in any revisions of the game, a pretty interesting site.

I actually enjoy browsing 4chan quite a bit. Believe it or not—and despite the preconceived notions you may have about it, whether justified or not—I think it’s one of the last “good” sites on the internet.

I am well aware of the site's history and the reasons why it is controversial. I've been using it to a certain degree since at least 2004 or so. The administration and moderation have certainly made missteps in the past, and it’s true the community can be toxic to a degree. However, I believe that the anonymity the site offers—something many people criticize— allows for more honest discussions. Your opinion ends up being more important that your status, follower count, or even personal profile. While the communication can be harsher, it’s also more honest.

For instance, back when I was working with Blender (and though I speak in past tense, I still want to get back to it… damnit), the most useful and genuine feedback I received on my work often came from posting in their 3D modeling board. Yes, they actually have one!

Moreover, it’s one of the few remaining community sites that remains simple and hasn’t been bogged down with bloated code. This means browsing is fast and smooth across all kinds of devices—a technical detail, sure, but one that’s important to me.

I’d recommend giving it a try. They have a ton of boards with different topics, explore the boards that cover topics you’re interested in, and do so with an open mind and don't pay too much attention to the trolling or flame wars you may encounter (tho i think they are funny). If you plan to participate, though, I’d advise lurking for a bit first. Get a feel for the culture so you don’t come across as a tourist.

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Book Review
Demian - By Hermann Hesse



"Demian" by Hermann Hesse follows the journey of Emil Sinclair, a young boy growing up in Germany during the early 20th century. He struggles with his inner conflicts and the pressures of conformity in society. Through encounters with enigmatic characters like Max Demian, Sinclair embarks on a spiritual and psychological quest for self-discovery and enlightenment.

Basically, it's a coming-of-age book.

I initially picked up this book out of nostalgia. At a second-hand book sale, I stumbled upon the same edition my dad had when I was a kid, the one (among other books) I apparently ended up destroying while playing. Oh well...

Reading a bit on the internet i discovered this book is commonly assigned to high school and college students, given that Emil Sinclair, the protagonist, is around that age throughout most of the story. His internal struggles and his perception of the world resonate with individuals of that demographic. Despite that i can certainly say it resonated with me at some level, because i still have some doubts about my presents that are, in a certain level, present in Emil's own inner struggles.

Emil Sinclair is portrayed as an impressionable teen, riddled with doubts. I could totally relate to his tendency to over-analyze situations and thoughts. However, his inclination to cling to disparate ideas and symbolisms struck me as peculiar, but I suppose it's a part of what being a adolescent is after all...

Without spoiling the plot, the central idea of the book revolves around the concept of embracing both the good and evil within oneself, and accepting the good and "evil" parts of one way of thinking, rather than conforming to societal norms blindly.

The book is chockfull of symbolysms and hidden ideas that are not hard to grasp if you scratch a little and do a bit of your own research. While "Demian" delves sometimes into mysticism, religion, and gnosticism, it serves more as a platform to explore ideas rather than endorse specific beliefs.

It has a lot of flaws and the ending is a bit rushed to my liking but it's still an enjoyable and relatable read.